Its Ok To Be Tired Of Yourself

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It’s OK to be tired of yourself.

Yes I said it right. Tired of your same old self…your old self attracts too much Bullshit.. so much so that you dedicate your life to change. You are tired.

So You begin to walk different, you begin to speak different, you entertain different conversations, you go different places, you dress different,  you begin to Pray different…

You meet different, you eat different, you put up with different shit.. you practice a different way of life because you want a different outcome… YOU ARE TIRED OF YOURSELF.

You are tired of yourself. And you have every right to change for the betterment of you. Because you are the one waking up tired of yourself and you just can’t deal.

Those who don’t respect that are the ones who more than likely want to constantly remind you of your past and who and how you use to be. They don’t understand that you are paying homage to your past by building a better life off it back.

They unfortunately miss out on the opportunity to meet a new friend with the same old values and beautiful heart that kept them in your life all this time.

My guess is that they ain’t tired of themselves yet.  

But YOU keep going.

Nobody works hard and goes thru all this hell and heartache in life to remain the same.

They call that insanity…. right?

Be Good To Yourself

Be Great!

WOMAN

You are known for always having your stuff together.  The strong one. The put together one.  The one who makes failure look like a win.

Everybody loves you, people flock around you in droves when you finally come out of hibernation to show the world your beautiful smile.  Your energy attracts a nation of millions.

You got it going on by any means necessary. You are beautiful.  You love hard.  You are in a relationship with the man of your dreams.

You live in a nice place and your children aren’t delinquents.  Even their father, though removed from the home, is supportive, mentally, emotionally, financially…  You are winning.  Some women want to be you, not that they lack self esteem, but because you carry a peace that is envied. You carry a glow that reminds others that they are not done growing.  You are admired.  The straightness of your back when you walk makes every curve on your body noticeable prompting quiet admirers to run to the gym in silence to reappear as your competition …but you ain’t listening.

People come to you for guidance, telling you their darkest secrets because they know that you will keep it. You are mother, sister, daughter, wife, bestie, home girl to the stars…

Men look at you with dirty thoughts… they wanna slide their knowledge between your eyes and drip hot conversation into your mouth and grope your soul…

They do not want to wife you… but instead marry everything in your world, every turn there is a promise and a vow to be the only one in your world as your protector, your guide though you need neither.. they still are honored and fight for the cause…

Perfect is what they call you as you saunter pass leaving a womanly fragrance in the air for them all to nose fight over sucking up all of your allure.. You leave people wanting more.

You are adored

But you wonder sometimes…  at night when you close your door

And the tears pour

That if you show that you are human… and that you have feelings too

Will you let the world that has shown you so much love down?

Because you are hurting over something they can’t see

Wanting something they cannot give

Needing one thing that not even you know what it is… until you get it

So you prepare your soul for it every day by being kind

By loving through the pain

By giving more than taking

By speaking positive words

By meditation

By being grateful

By being…

A woman

Just know that it is okay…